Last year, I received a rather poignant fortune cookie fortune:
It's amazing how much good you can do if you don't care who gets the credit.
That fortune came to mind during the Gospel reading at this morning's Ash Wednesday Mass, especially Matthew 6:5-6:
When you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, who love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on street corners so that others may see them. Amen, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you pray, go to your inner room, close the door, and pray to your Father in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will repay you.

Whenever I read this passage, I feel a little twinge of guilt in my stomach, because I sometimes ignore the Lord's call to humility. This morning, for example, I was kind of excited about wearing ashes on my forehead all day, and this passage makes me question my motives. The point isn't to get attention for one's piety. The ashes represent my repentant spirit at the beginning of Lent, which is between me and God. And yet, I shouldn't wash off the ashes, because, well, I'm certainly not ashamed of my relationship with God. Ideally, the fact that I had ashes on my forehead should not have had any impact upon how I conducted myself today. To put it another way, I should always act as though I have ashes on my forehead, because I am always representing Christ through my interactions with others.
The service I attended was in the Blessed Sacrament Chapel of the National Shrine. The presiding priest at Mass said in his homily that Ash Wednesday is like an alarm clock that goes off once a year to wake us up from our spiritual slumber. That really resonated with me. I'm awake, Lord! Ash Wednesday is my favorite liturgical season because it motivates me to maintain a higher level of spiritual discipline.
This year, I'm more focused on doing than giving things up. I want to be more mindful of how I spend my time, because my busyness often gets in the way of my relationship with God. So, one one thing I am "giving up," so to speak, is wasting time on the Internet. I am only going to go on websites like Facebook and Twitter once per day. I'm not giving them up completely for Lent because I don't think they're a vice. I think it's good that these websites allow me to keep in touch with friends. However, I don't need to check those sites as often--dare I say, compulsively--as I do. I am amazed, one day in, how many times I felt a nervous urge to go online, as though on autopilot. I'm going to try to channel those moments toward prayer.
The main focus of my Lent will be a different discipline for each day of the week, accompanied by a virtue upon which to meditate (in response to the seven deadly sins). I suggested this when brainstorming what to do for Lent
last year, and this year I'm going to try it. Here is my schedule for each week this Lent:
Sundays: read the Sunday Missal, focus on charity (contra: greed)
Mondays: fast, focus on temperance (contra: gluttony)
Tuesdays: do Bible study, focus on diligence (contra: sloth)
Wednesdays: do prayers of intercession, focus on kindness (contra: envy)
Thursdays: pray the Rosary, focus on chastity (contra: lust)
Fridays: do the Liturgy of the Hours, focus on patience (contra: wrath)
Saturdays: go to Reconciliation, focus on humility (contra: pride)
I will also be going through a
booklet called "Not By Bread Alone: Daily Reflections for Lent," which provides a reflection, a meditation, and a prayer related to each day's Mass readings. I've used this booklet the past couple years, and find that it works well for me as a morning devotional.
Also, next week I will be making a Prayer in Daily Life retreat through Georgetown Law's Campus Ministry. This is "phase two" of the retreat that I
went on 1L year. It will be interesting to look back on last year and contemplate my spiritual journey through the first half (nearing two-thirds!) of law school. I'm glad that the retreat will be during the first full week of Lent, to set the tone for the season.
Now, it might seem odd to discuss humility issues on my blog, followed by a list of all the things I'm doing for Lent. Isn't that kind of like bragging? I hope not. I don't intend for this to be me showing off. Rather, I'd like my blog to be a forum for spiritual growth. Let's keep one another accountable this Lenten season, dear readers! What are you doing for Lent? You're in my prayers.