Dear Nana,
You passed away last night, while I was 3,000 miles away. You were 87 years old and suffering from Alzheimer's, so perhaps it was merciful that God took you home. Nonetheless, I am so sad that I couldn't be by your bedside as you left this world. I know you were so supportive of my education, and that you'll be looking in on my graduation this Sunday.
I miss you already. You were always so encouraging, so selfless, so loving. You were such a hard worker. Your family was your top priority, and you raised three amazing sons all by yourself as a widow. You never married again, because Grandpa Leo was your true love. I am so glad that you can be with him again now.
Thank you for rekindling my relationship with God. As I wrote of you in an op-ed that I wrote for the Law Weekly my 1L year:
The week before I left for undergrad, I went to visit my grandmother. At the end of our visit, saying our good-byes, she tearfully embraced me and whispered in my ear, “Don’t lose faith.” Those three little words spurred me on to grow dramatically in my relationship with God, and provided me with a clear model for showing others accountability.I have identified that moment as one of the major turning points of my faith life. Thank you for accepting God's call to be a vessel for his message, and for living a life full of grace that inspires me to be as compassionate and honorable as you have been.
I will miss your hugs. I will miss your perpetual concern that I wasn't wearing enough layers to keep warm. I will miss you eating crab with us at Christmas. I will miss you telling me that, if I ever need anything, just ask you. I will miss how you always hid tissues up your sleeves. I will miss the way you doctored up spinach dip with extra water chestnuts. I will miss you telling me the stories of what my dad and uncles were like growing up. I will miss your expertise in caring for plants. I will miss going out for ice cream with you. I will miss watching Mom paint your nails. I will miss...
When I was in sixth grade, we were assigned a school project to do about our hero. Most children chose well-known figures, like astronauts or Mother Teresa. I chose you as my hero. To this day, you are still my hero. You inspire me to work hard, to make sacrifices, to be caring, and, most importantly, to never lose faith. Thank you for always being there for me, and I love you so much.
Your granddaughter,
Amanda
